We also had Carson's first ENT appointment last week.I can't tell you how much I dread doctors’appointments.It is just a reminder of the fact that, yes, my son has Down's Syndrome, and all the health issues that come with it.I leave them depressed and feeling like we will never get a clean bill of health.Carson's hearing test came back a little low.The doctor is not worried about it because it isn't a very accurate test and he seems to hear.The more accurate one would require putting him under and we don't want to do that with his heart.Having said that, the doctor is not worried...Mom is.I know he can hear and never worried about it.Now I am constantly saying his name across the room in whispers to see if he can hear.Sometimes I wonder if going to the doctor just makes things worse.I know the whole point is to get a baseline and be preventive, but it is hard to hear that your kid has anything wrong with them. Actually I would love a doctor to tell me something positive about my child.In all honestly he is doing really well and has been a healthy baby especially with all he has going on.
Kaylee came with me to Carson's therapy today due to them having to reschedule.It is so hard to have to explain to Kaylee why the girl in the other room is 12 and can't talk, needs help climbing stairs, and help doing basic things.I tried to explain to her that God makes everyone different and she is so blessed to be able to use her words and to have strong muscles.She looked at me and asked, "Does that girl have Down Syndrome like my brother?"I wanted to bust out crying.At such a young age she gets so much.I don't know exactly what the little girl had, but I do know that Kaylee gets it.My hope is that this makes her a better person. A more tolerant person, a more understanding person, and someone who realizes how blessed she is.This truly is my hope for everyone.I believe that Carson was put on this Earth to show us true unconditional love, to remind us of how fortunate we are to be able to do things we take for granted.I love my moments I have looking at my family and feeling so lucky (not thinking about doctors, the future, health stuff), because I truly am very blessed.